Friday, 4 December 2009

Mr. Sludge, “The Medium”

Mr. Sludge, “The Medium”
Robert Browning

NOW, don’t, sir! Don’t expose me!
Just this once! This was the first and only time, I’ll swear,—
Look at me,—see, I kneel,—the only time,
I swear, I ever cheated,—yes, by the soul
Of Her who hears—(your sainted mother, sir!)
All, except this last accident, was truth—
This little kind of slip!—and even this,
It was your own wine, sir, the good champagne,
(I took it for Catawba, you ’re so kind)
Which put the folly in my head!

“Get up?”
You still inflict on me that terrible face?
You show no mercy?—Not for Her dear sake,
The sainted spirit’s, whose soft breath even now
Blows on my cheek—(don’t you feel something, sir?)
You ’ll tell?

Go tell, then! Who the devil cares
What such a rowdy chooses to . . .

Please, sir! your thumbs are through my windpipe, sir!

Well, sir, I hope you ’ve done it now!
Oh Lord! I little thought, sir, yesterday,
When your departed mother spoke those words
Of peace through me, and moved you, sir, so much,
You gave me—(very kind it was of you)
These shirt-studs—(better take them back again,
Please, sir)—yes, little did I think so soon
A trifle of trick, all through a glass too much
Of his own champagne, would change my best of friends
Into an angry gentleman!

Though, ’t was wrong.
I don’t contest the point: your anger’s just:
Whatever put such folly in my head,
I know ’t was wicked of me. There ’s a thick
Dusk undeveloped spirit (I ’ve observed)
Owes me a grudge—a negro’s, I should say,
Or else an Irish emigrant’s; yourself
Explained the case so well last Sunday, sir,
When we had summoned Franklin to clear up
A point about those shares i’ the telegraph:
Ay, and he swore . . . or might it be Tom Paine? . . .
Thumping the table close by where I crouched,
He ’d do me soon a mischief: that ’s come true!
Why, now your face clears! I was sure it would!
Then, this one time . . . don’t take your hand away,
Through yours I surely kiss your mother’s hand . . .
You’ll promise to forgive me?—or, at least,
Tell nobody of this? Consider, sir!
What harm can mercy do? Would but the shade
Of the venerable dead-one just vouchsafe
A rap or tip! What bit of paper ’s here?
Suppose we take a pencil, let her write,
Make the least sign, she urges on her child
Forgiveness? There now! Eh? Oh! ’T was your foot,
And not a natural creak, sir?

Answer, then!
Once, twice, thrice . . . see, I’m waiting to say “thrice!”
All to no use? No sort of hope for me?
It ’s all to post to Greeley’s newspaper?

What? If I told you all about the tricks?
Upon my soul?—the whole truth, and nought else,
And how there ’s been some falsehood—for your part,
Will you engage to pay my passage out,
And hold your tongue until I ’m safe on board?
England’s the place, not Boston—no offence!
I see what makes you hesitate: don’t fear!
I mean to change my trade and cheat no more,
Yes, this time really it ’s upon my soul!
Be my salvation!—under Heaven, of course.
I ’ll tell some queer things. Sixty Vs must do.
A trifle, though, to start with! We ’ll refer
The question to this table?

How you re changed!
Then split the difference; thirty more, we ’ll say.
Ay, but you leave my presents! Else I ’ll swear
’T was all through those: you wanted yours again,
So, picked a quarrel with me, to get them back!
Tread on a worm, it turns, sir! If I turn,
Your fault! ’T is you’ll have forced me! Who’s obliged
To give up life yet try on self-defence?
At all events, I ’ll run the risk. Eh?

May I sit, sir? This dear old table, now!
Please, sir, a parting egg-nogg and cigar!
I ’ve been so happy with you! Nice stuffed chairs,
And sympathetic sideboards; what an end
To all the instructive evenings! (It ’s alight.)
Well, nothing lasts, as Bacon came and said.
Here goes,—but keep your temper, or I ’ll scream!

You see, sir, it ’s your own fault more than mine;
It ’s all your fault, you curious gentlefolk!
You ’re prigs,—excuse me,—like to look so spry,
So clever, while you cling by half a claw
To the perch whereon you puff yourselves at roost,
Such piece of self-conceit as serves for perch
Because you chose it, so it must be safe.
Oh, otherwise you ’re sharp enough! You spy
Who slips, who slides, who holds by help of wing,
Wanting real foothold,—who can’t keep upright
On the other perch, your neighbour chose, not you:
There ’s no outwitting you respecting him!
For instance, men love money—that, you know
And what men do to gain it: well, suppose
A poor lad, say a help’s son in your house,
Listening at keyholes, hears the company
Talk grand of dollars, V-notes, and so forth,
How hard they are to get, how good to hold,
How much they buy,—if, suddenly, in pops he—
“I’ve got a V-note!”—what do you say to him?
What’s your first word which follows your last kick?
“Where did you steal it, rascal?” That ’s because
He finds you, fain would fool you, off your perch,
Not on the special piece of nonsense, sir,
Elected your parade-ground: let him try
Lies to the end of the list,— “He picked it up,
“His cousin died and left it him by will,
“The President flung it to him, riding by,
“An actress trucked it for a curl of his hair,
“He dreamed of luck and found his shoe enriched,
“He dug up clay, and out of clay made gold”—
How would you treat such possibilities?
Would not you, prompt, investigate the case
With cow-hide? “Lies, lies, lies,” you’d shout: and why?
Which of the stories might not prove mere truth?
This last, perhaps, that clay was turned to coin!
Let’s see, now, give him me to speak for him!
How many of your rare philosophers,
In plaguy books I’ve had to dip into,
Believed gold could be made thus, saw it made
And made it? Oh, with such philosophers
You’re on your best behaviour! While the lad—
With him, in a trice, you settle likelihoods,
Nor doubt a moment how he got his prize:
In his case, you hear, judge and execute,
All in a breath: so would most men of sense.

But let the same lad hear you talk as grand
At the same keyhole, you and company,
Of signs and wonders, the invisible world;
How wisdom scouts our vulgar unbelief
More than our vulgarest credulity;
How good men have desired to see a ghost,
What Johnson used to say, what Wesley did,
Mother Goose thought, and fiddle-diddle-dee:—
If he break in with, “Sir, I saw a ghost!”
Ah, the ways change! He finds you perched and prim;
It’s a conceit of yours that ghosts may be:
There’s no talk now of cow-hide. “Tell it out!
“Don’t fear us! Take your time and recollect!
“Sit down first: try a glass of wine, my boy!
“And, David, (is not that your Christian name?)
“Of all things, should this happen twice—it may—
“Be sure, while fresh in mind, you let us know!”
Does the boy blunder, blurt out this, blab that,
Break down in the other, as beginners will?
All ’s candour, all ’s considerateness—“No haste!
“Pause and collect yourself! We understand!
“That’s the bad memory, or the natural shock,
Or the unexplained phenomena!”

The boy takes heart of grace; finds, never fear,
The readiest way to ope your own heart wide,
Show—what I call your peacock-perch, pet post
To strut, and spread the tail, and squawk upon!
“Just as you thought, much as you might expect!
“There be more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,” . .
And so on. Shall not David take the hint,
Grow bolder, stroke you down at quickened rate?
If he ruffle a feather, it ’s “Gently, patiently!
“Manifestations are so weak at first!
“Doubting, moreover, kills them, cuts all short,
“Cures with a vengeance!”

There, sir, that’s your style!
You and your boy—such pains bestowed on him,
Or any headpiece of the average worth,
To teach, say, Greek, would perfect him apace,
Make him a Person (“Porson?” thank you, sir!)
Much more, proficient in the art of lies.
You never leave the lesson! Fire alight,
Catch you permitting it to die! You ’ve friends;
There ’s no withholding knowledge,—least from those
Apt to look elsewhere for their souls’ supply:
Why should not you parade your lawful prize?
Who finds a picture, digs a medal up,
Hits on a first edition,—he henceforth
Gives it his name, grows notable: how much more,
Who ferrets out a “medium”? “David ’s yours,
“You highly-favoured man? Then, pity souls
“Less privileged! Allow us share your luck!”
So, David holds the circle, rules the roast,
Narrates the vision, peeps in the glass ball
Sets-to the spirit-writing, hears the raps,
As the case may be.

Now mark! To be precise—
Though I say, “lies” all these, at this first stage,
’T is just for science’ sake: I call such grubs
By the name of what they’ll turn to, dragonflies.
Strictly, it ’s what good people style untruth;
But yet, so far, not quite the full-grown thing:
It ’s fancying, fable-making, nonsense-work—
What never meant to be so very bad—
The knack of story-telling, brightening up
Each dull old bit of fact that drops its shine.
One does see somewhat when one shuts one’s eyes,
If only spots and streaks; tables do tip
In the oddest way of themselves: and pens, good Lord,
Who knows if you drive them or they drive you?
’T is but a foot in the water and out again;
Not that duck-under which decides your dive.
Note this, for it ’s important: listen why.
I ’ll prove, you push on David till he dives
And ends the shivering. Here ’s your circle, now:
Two-thirds of them, with heads like you their host,
Turn up their eyes, and cry, as you expect,
“Lord, who’d have thought it!” But there’s always one
Looks wise, compassionately smiles, submits
“Of your veracity no kind of doubt,
“But—do you feel so certain of that boy’s?
“Really, I wonder! I confess myself
“More chary of my faith!” That ’s galling, sir!
What, he the investigator, he the sage,
When all ’s done? Then, you just have shut your eyes,
Opened your mouth, and gulped down David whole,
You! Terrible were such catastrophe!
So, evidence is redoubled, doubled again,
And doubled besides; once more, “He heard, we heard,
“You and they heard, your mother and your wife,
“Your children and the stranger in your gates:
“Did they or did they not?” So much for him,
The black sheep, guest without the wedding-garb,
The doubting Thomas! Now ’s your time to crow:
“He’s kind to think you such a fool: Sludge cheats?
“Leave you alone to take precautions!”
The rest join chorus. Thomas stands abashed,
Sips silent some such beverage as this,
Considers if it be harder, shutting eyes
And gulping David in good fellowship,
Than going elsewhere, getting, in exchange,
With no egg-nogg to lubricate the food,
Some just as tough a morsel. Over the way,
Holds Captain Sparks his court: is it better there?
Have not you hunting-stories, scalping-scenes,
And Mexican War exploits to swallow plump
If you ’d be free o’ the stove-side, rocking-chair,
And trio of affable daughters?
Doubt succumbs!
Victory! All your circle ’s yours again!
Out of the clubbing of submissive wits,
David’s performance rounds, each chink gets patched,
Every protrusion of a point ’s filed fine,
All ’s fit to set a-rolling round the world,
And then return to David finally,
Lies seven-feet thick about his first half-inch.
Here ’s a choice birth o’ the supernatural,
Poor David ’s pledged to! You ’ve employed no tool
That laws exclaim at, save the devil’s own,
Yet screwed him into henceforth gulling you
To the top o’ your bent,—all out of one half-lie!

You hold, if there ’s one half or a hundredth part
Of a lie, that ’s his fault,—his be the penalty!
I dare say! You ’d prove firmer in his place?
You ’d find the courage,—that first flurry over,
That mild bit of romancing-work at end,—
To interpose with “It gets serious, this;
“Must stop here. Sir, I saw no ghost at all.
“Inform your friends I made . . . well, fools of them,
“And found you ready-made. I ’ve lived in clover
“These three weeks: take it out in kicks of me!”
I doubt it. Ask your conscience! Let me know,
Twelve months hence, with how few embellishments
You ’ve told almighty Boston of this passage
Of arms between us, your first taste o’ the foil
From Sludge who could not fence, sir! Sludge, your boy!
I lied, sir,—there! I got up from my gorge
On offal in the gutter, and preferred
Your canvas-backs: I took their carver’s size,
Measured his modicum of intelligence,
Tickled him on the cockles of his heart
With a raven feather, and next week found myself
Sweet and clean, dining daintily, dizened smart,
Set on a stool buttressed by ladies’ knees,
Every soft smiler calling me her pet,
Encouraging my story to uncoil
And creep out from its hole, inch after inch,
“How last night, I no sooner snug in bed,
“Tucked up, just as they left me,—than came raps!
“While a light whisked” . . . “Shaped somewhat like a star?”
“Well, like some sort of stars, ma’am.”—“So we thought!
“And any voice? Not yet? Try hard, next time,
“If you can’t hear a voice; we, think you may:
“At least, the Pennsylvanian ‘mediums’ did.”
Oh, next time comes the voice! “Just as we hoped!”
Are not the hopers proud now, pleased, profuse
O’ the natural acknowledgment?

Of course!
So, off we push, illy-oh-yo, trim the boat,
On we sweep with a cataract ahead,
We ’re midway to the Horseshoe: stop, who can,
The dance of bubbles gay about our prow!
Experiences become worth waiting for,
Spirits now speak up, tell their inmost mind,
And compliment the “medium” properly,
Concern themselves about his Sunday coat,
See rings on his hand with pleasure. Ask yourself
How you ’d receive a course of treats like these!
Why, take the quietest hack and stall him up,
Cram him with corn a month, then out with him
Among his mates on a bright April morn,
With the turf to tread; see if you find or no
A caper in him, if he bucks or bolts!
Much more a youth whose fancies sprout as rank
As toadstool-clump from melon-bed. ’T is soon,
“Sirrah, you spirit, come, go, fetch and carry,
“Read, write, rap, rub-a-dub, and hang yourself!”
I’m spared all further trouble; all ’s arranged;
Your circle does my business; I may rave
Like an epileptic dervish in the books,
Foam, fling myself flat, rend my clothes to shreds;
No matter: lovers, friends and countrymen
Will lay down spiritual laws, read wrong things right
By the rule o’ reverse. If Francis Verulam
Styles himself Bacon, spells the name beside
With a y and a k, says he drew breath in York,
Gave up the ghost in Wales when Cromwell reigned,
(As, sir, we somewhat fear he was apt to say,
Before I found the useful book that knows)
Why, what harm ’s done? The circle smiles apace,
“It was not Bacon. after all. you see!
“We understand; the trick ’s but natural:
“Such spirits’ individuality
“Is hard to put in evidence: they incline
“To gibe and jeer, these undeveloped sorts.
“You see, their world ’s much like a jail broke loose,
“While this of ours remains shut, bolted, barred,
“With a single window to it. Sludge, our friend,
“Serves as this window, whether thin or thick,
“Or stained or stainless; he’s the medium-pane
“Through which, to see us and be seen, they peep:
“They crowd each other, hustle for a chance,
“Tread on their neighbour’s kibes, play tricks enough!
“Does Bacon, tired of waiting, swerve aside?
“Up in his place jumps Barnum—‘I ’m your man,
“‘I ’ll answer you for Bacon!’ Try once more!”

Or else it ’s—“What ’s a ‘medium’? He ’s a means,
“Good, bad, indifferent, still the only means
“Spirits can speak by; he may misconceive,
“Stutter and stammer,—he ’s their Sludge and drudge,
“Take him or leave him; they must hold their peace,
“Or else, put up with having knowledge strained
“To half-expression through his ignorance.
“Suppose, the spirit Beethoven wants to shed
“New music he’s brimful of; why, he turns
“The handle of this organ, grinds with Sludge,
“And what he poured in at the mouth o’ the mill
“As a Thirty-third Sonata, (fancy now!)
“Comes from the hopper as bran-new Sludge, nought else,
“The Shakers’ Hymn in G, with a natural F,
“Or the ‘Stars and Stripes’ set to consecutive fourths.”
Sir, where’s the scrape you did not help me through,
You that are wise? And for the fools, the folk
Who came to see,—the guests, (observe that word!)
Pray do you find guests criticize your wine,
Your furniture, your grammar, or your nose?
Then, why your “medium”? What’s the difference?
Prove your madeira red-ink and gamboge,—
Your Sludge, a cheat—then, somebody ’s a goose
For vaunting both as genuine. “Guests!” Don’t fear!
They ’ll make a wry face, nor too much of that,
And leave you in your glory.

“No, sometimes
“They doubt and say as much!” Ay, doubt they do!
And what’s the consequence? “Of course they doubt”—
(You triumph) “that explains the hitch at once!
“Doubt posed our ‘medium,’ puddled his pure mind;
“He gave them back their rubbish: pitch chaff in,
“Could flour come out o’ the honest mill?” So, prompt
Applaud the faithful: cases flock in point,
“How, when a mocker willed a ‘medium’ once
“Should name a spirit James whose name was George,
“‘James’ cried the ‘medium,’—’t was the test of truth!”
In short, a hit proves much, a miss proves more.
Does this convince? The better: does it fail?
Time for the double-shotted broadside, then—
The grand means, last resource. Look black and big!
“You style us idiots, therefore—why stop short?
“Accomplices in rascality; this we hear
“In our own house, from our invited guest
“Found brave enough to outrage a poor boy
“Exposed by our good faith! Have you been heard?
“Now, then, hear us; one man ’s not quite worth twelve.
“You see a cheat? Here ’s some twelve see an ass!
“Excuse me if I calculate: good day!”
Out slinks the sceptic, all the laughs explode.
Sludge waves his hat in triumph!

Or—he don’t.
There’s something in real truth (explain who can!)
One casts a wistful eye at, like the horse
Who mopes beneath stuffed hay-racks and won’t munch
Because he spies a corn-bag: hang that truth,
It spoils all dainties proffered in its place!
I ’ve felt at times when, cockered, cosseted
And coddled by the aforesaid company,
Bidden enjoy their bullying,—never fear,
But o’er their shoulders spit at the flying man,—
I ’ve felt a child; only, a fractious child
That, dandled soft by nurse, aunt, grandmother,
Who keep him from the kennel, sun and wind,
Good fun and wholesome mud,—enjoined be sweet,
And comely and superior,—eyes askance
The ragged sons o’ the gutter at their game,
Fain would be down with them i’ the thick o’ the filth,
Making dirt-pies, laughing free, speaking plain,
And calling granny the grey old cat she is.
I ’ve felt a spite, I say, at you, at them,
Huggings and humbug-gnashed my teeth to mark
A decent dog pass! It ’s too bad, I say,
Ruining a soul so!

But what ’s “so,” what ’s fixed,
Where may one stop? Nowhere! The cheating’s nursed
Out of the lying, softly and surely spun
To just your length, sir! I’d stop soon enough:
But you’re for progress. “All old, nothing new?
“Only the usual talking through the mouth,
“Or writing by the hand? I own, I thought
“This would develop, grow demonstrable,
“Make doubt absurb, give figures we might see,
“Flowers we might touch. There’s no one doubts you, Sludge!
“You dream the dreams, you see the spiritual sights,
“The speeches come in your head, beyond dispute.
“Still, for the sceptics’ sake, to stop all mouths,
“We want some outward manifestation!—well,
“The Pennsylvanians gained such; why not Sludge?
“He may improve with time!”

Ay, that he may!
He sees his lot: there’s no avoiding fate.
’T is a trifle at first. “Eh, David? Did you hear?
“You jogged the table, your foot caused the squeak,
“This time you’re . . . joking, are you not, my boy?”
“N-n-no!”—and I ’m done for, bought and sold hence forth.
The old good easy jog-trot way, the . . . eh?
The . . . not so very false, as falsehood goes,
The spinning out and drawing fine, you know,—
Really mere novel-writing of a sort,
Acting, or improvising, make-believe,
Surely not downright cheatery,—any how,
’T is done with and my lot cast; Cheat’s my name:
The fatal dash of brandy in your tea
Has settled what you’ll have the souchong’s smack:
The caddy gives way to the drain-bottle.

Then, it’s so cruel easy! Oh, those tricks
That can’t be tricks, those feats by sleight of hand,
Clearly no common conjuror’s!—no indeed!
A conjuror? Choose me any craft i’ the world
A man puts hand to; and with six months’ pains
I’ll play you twenty tricks miraculous
To people untaught the trade: have you seen glass blown,
Pipes pierced? Why, just this biscuit that I chip,
Did you ever watch a baker toss one flat
To the oven? Try and do it! Take my word,
Practise but half as much, while limbs are lithe,
To turn, shove, tilt a table, crack your joints,
Manage your feet, dispose your hands aright,
Work wires that twitch the curtains, play the glove
At end o’ your slipper,—then put out the lights
And . . . there, there, all you want you ’ll get, I hope!
I found it slip, easy as an old shoe.

Now, lights on table again! I ’ve done my part,
You take my place while I give thanks and rest.
“Well, Judge Humgruffin, what ’s your verdict, sir?
“You, hardest head in the United States,—
“Did you detect a cheat here? Wait! Let ’s see!
“Just an experiment first, for candour’s sake!
“I ’ll try and cheat you, Judge? The table tilts:
“Is it I that move it? Write! I’ll press your hand:
“Cry when I push, or guide your pencil, Judge!”
Sludge still triumphant! “That a rap, indeed?
“That, the real writing? Very like a whale!
“Then, if, sir, you—a most distinguished man,
“And, were the Judge not here, I’d say, . . . no matter!
“Well, sir, if you fail, you can’t take us in,—
”There ’s little fear that Sludge will!”

Won’t he, ma’am
But what if our distinguished host, like Sludge,
Bade God bear witness that he played no trick,
While you believed that what produced the raps
Was just a certain child who died, you know,
And whose last breath you thought your lips had felt?
Eh? That’s a capital point, ma’am; Sludge begins
At your entreaty with your dearest dead,
The little voice set lisping once again,
The tiny hand made feel for yours once more,
The poor lost image brought back, plain as dreams,
Which image, if a word had chanced recall,
The customary cloud would cross your eyes,
Your heart return the old tick, pay its pang!
A right mood for investigation, this!
One’s at one’s ease with Saul and Jonathan,
Pompey and Caesar: but one’s own lost child . . .
I wonder, when you heard the first clod drop
From the spadeful at the grave-side, felt you free
To investigate who twitched your funeral scarf
Or brushed your flounces? Then, it came of course
You should be stunned and stupid; then, (how else?)
Your breath stopped with your blood, your brain struck work.
But now, such causes fail of such effects,
All ’s changed,—the little voice begins afresh,
Yet, you, calm, consequent, can test and try
And touch the truth. “Tests? Didn’t the creature tell
“Its nurse’s name, and say it lived six years,
“And rode a rocking-horse? Enough of tests!
“Sludge never could learn that!”

He could not, eh?
You compliment him. “ Could not?” Speak for yourself!
I ’d like to know the man I ever saw
Once,—never mind where, how, why, when,—once saw,
Of whom I do not keep some matter in mind
He ’d swear I “could not” know, sagacious soul!
What? Do you live in this world’s blow of blacks,
Palaver, gossipry, a single hour
Nor find one smut has settled on your nose,
Of a smut’s worth, no more, no less?—one fact
Out of the drift of facts, whereby you learn
What someone was, somewhere, somewhen, somewhy?
You don’t tell folk—“See what has stuck to me!
“Judge Humgruffin, our most distinguished man,
“Your uncle was a tailor, and your wife
“Thought to have married Miggs, missed him, hit you!”—
Do you, sir, though you see him twice a-week?
“No,” you reply, “what use retailing it?
“Why should I?” But, you see, one day you should,
Because one day there ’s much use,—when this fact
Brings you the Judge upon both gouty knees
Before the supernatural; proves that Sludge Knows,
as you say, a thing he “could not” know:
Will not Sludge thenceforth keep an outstretched face
The way the wind drives?

“Could not!” Look you now,
I ’ll tell you a story! There ’s a whiskered chap,
A foreigner, that teaches music here
And gets his bread,—knowing no better way:
He says, the fellow who informed of him
And made him fly his country and fall West
Was a hunchback cobbler, sat, stitched soles and sang,
In some outlandish place, the city Rome,
In a cellar by their Broadway, all day long;
Never asked questions, stopped to listen or look,
Nor lifted nose from lapstone; let the world
Roll round his three-legged stool, and news run in
The ears he hardly seemed to keep pricked up.
Well, that man went on Sundays, touched his pay,
And took his praise from government, you see;
For something like two dollars every week,
He’d engage tell you some one little thing
Of some one man, which led to many more,
(Because one truth leads right to the world’s end)
And make you that man’s master—when he dined
And on what dish, where walked to keep his health
And to what street. His trade was, throwing thus
His sense out, like an ant-eater’s long tongue,
Soft, innocent, warm, moist, impassible,
And when ’t was crusted o’er with creatures—slick,
Their juice enriched his palate. “Could not Sludge!”

I ’ll go yet a step further, and maintain,
Once the imposture plunged its proper depth
I’ the rotton of your natures, all of you,—
(If one ’s not mad nor drunk, and hardly then)
It ’s impossible to cheat—that ’s, be found out!
Go tell your brotherhood this first slip of mine,
All to-day’s tale, how you detected Sludge,
Behaved unpleasantly, till he was fain confess,
And so has come to grief! You’ll find, I think,
Why Sludge still snaps his fingers in your face.
There now, you’ve told them! What’s their prompt reply?
“Sir, did that youth confess he had cheated me,
“I’d disbelieve him. He may cheat at times;
“That’s in the ‘medium’-nature, thus they’re made,
“Vain and vindictive, cowards, prone to scratch
“And so all cats are; still, a cat ’s the beast
“You coax the strange electric sparks from out,
“By rubbing back its fur; not so a dog,
“Nor lion, nor lamb: ’t is the cat’s nature, sir!
“Why not the dog’s? Ask God, who made them beasts!
“D’ ye think the sound, the nicely-balanced man
“(Like me”—aside)—“like you yourself,”—(aloud)
‘—He ’s stuff to make a ‘medium’? Bless your soul,
“’T is these hysteric, hybrid half-and-halfs,
“Equivocal, worthless vermin yield the fire!
“We take such as we find them, ’ware their tricks,
“Wanting their service. Sir, Sludge took in you—
“How, I can’t say, not being there to watch:
“He was tried, was tempted by your easiness,—
“He did not take in me!”

Thank you for Sludge!
I ’m to be grateful to such patrons, eh,
When what you hear’s my best word? ’T is a challenge
“Snap at all strangers, half-tamed prairie-dog,
“So you cower duly at your keeper’s beck!
“Cat, show what claws were made for, muffling them
“Only to me! Cheat others if you can,
“Me, if you dare!” And, my wise sir, I dared—
Did cheat you first, made you cheat others next,
And had the help o’ your vaunted manliness
To bully the incredulous. You used me?
Have not I used you, taken full revenge,
Persuaded folk they knew not their own name,
And straight they’d own the error! Who was the fool
When, to an awe-struck wide-eyed open-mouthed
Circle of sages, Sludge would introduce
Milton composing baby-rhymes, and Locke
Reasoning in gibberish, Homer writing Greek
In noughts and crosses, Asaph setting psalms
To crotchet and quaver? I ’ve made a spirit squeak
In sham voice for a minute, then outbroke
Bold in my own, defying the imbeciles—
Have copied some ghost’s pothooks, half a page,
Then ended with my own scrawl undisguised.
“All right! The ghost was merely using Sludge,
“Suiting itself from his imperfect stock!
“Don’t talk of gratitude to me! For what?
For being treated as a showman’s ape,
Encouraged to be wicked and make sport,
Fret or sulk, grin or whimper, any mood
So long as the ape be in it and no man—
Because a nut pays every mood alike.
Curse your superior, superintending sort,
Who, since you hate smoke, send up boys that climb
To cure your chimney, bid a “medium” lie
To sweep you truth down! Curse your women too,
Your insolent wives and daughters, that fire up
Or faint away if a male hand squeeze theirs,
Yet, to encourage Sludge, may play with Sludge
As only a “medium,” only the kind of thing
They must humour, fondle . . . oh, to misconceive
Were too preposterous! But I’ve paid them out!
They ’ve had their wish—called for the naked truth,
And in she tripped, sat down and bade them stare:
They had to blush a little and forgive!
“The fact is, children talk so; in next world
“All our conventions are reversed,—perhaps
“Made light of: something like old prints, my dear!
“The Judge has one, he brought from Italy,
“A metropolis in the background,—o’er a bridge,
“A team of trotting roadsters,—cheerful groups
“Of wayside travellers, peasants at their work,
“And, full in front, quite unconcerned, why not?
“Three nymphs conversing with a cavalier,
“And never a rag among them: ‘fine,’ folk cry—
”And heavenly manners seem not much unlike!
“Let Sludge go on; we ’ll fancy it ’s in print!
“If such as came for wool, sir, went home shorn,
Where is the wrong I did them? ’T was their choice;
They tried the adventure, ran the risk, tossed up
And lost, as some one’s sure to do in games;
They fancied I was made to lose,– smoked glass
Useful to spy the sun through, spare their eyes:
And had I proved a red-hot iron plate
They thought to pierce, and, for their pains, grew blind,
Whose were the fault but theirs? While, as things go,
Their loss amounts to gain, the more ’s the shame!
They’ve had their peep into the spirit-world,
And all this world may know it! They’ve fed fat
Their self-conceit which else had starved: what chance
Save this, of cackling o’er a golden egg
And compassing distinction from the flock,
Friends of a feather? Well, they paid for it,
And not prodigiously; the price o’ the play,
Not counting certain pleasant interludes,
Was scarce a vulgar play’s worth. When you buy
The actor’s talent, do you dare propose
For his soul beside? Whereas my soul you buy!
Sludge acts Macbeth, obliged to be Macbeth,
Or you’ll not hear his first word! Just go through
That slight formality, swear himself ’s the Thane,
And thenceforth he may strut and fret his hour,
Spout, spawl, or spin his target, no one cares!
Why hadn’t I leave to play tricks, Sludge as Sludge?
Enough of it all! I’ve wiped out scores with you—
Vented your fustian, let myself be streaked
Like tone-fool with your ochre and carmine,
Worn patchwork your respectable fingers sewed
To metamorphose somebody,—yes, I’ve earned
My wages, swallowed down my bread of shame,
And shake the crumbs off—where but in your face?

As for religion—why, I served it, sir!
I’ll stick to that! With my phenomena
I laid the atheist sprawling on his back,
Propped up Saint Paul, or, at least, Swedenborg!
In fact, it’s just the proper way to baulk
These troublesome fellows-liars, one and all,
Are not these sceptics? Well, to baffle them,
No use in being squeamish: lie yourself!
Erect your buttress just as wide o’ the line,
Your side, as they build up the wall on theirs;
Where both meet, midway in a point, is truth
High overhead: so, take your room, pile bricks,
Lie! Oh, there’s titillation in all shame!
What snow may lose in white, snow gains in rose!
Miss Stokes turns—Rahab,—nor a bad exchange!
Glory be on her, for the good she wrought,
Breeding belief anew ’neath ribs of death,
Browbeating now the unabashed before,
Ridding us of their whole life’s gathered straws
By a live coal from the altar! Why, of old,
Great men spent years and years in writing books
To prove we ’ve souls, and hardly proved it then:
Miss Stokes with her live coal, for you and me!
Surely, to this good issue, all was fair—
Not only fondling Sludge, but, even suppose
He let escape some spice of knavery,—well,
In wisely being blind to it! Don’t you praise
Nelson for setting spy-glass to blind eye
Any saying . . . what was it—that he could not see
The signal he was bothered with? Ay, indeed!

I ’ll go beyond: there ’s a real love of a lie,
Liars find ready-made for lies they make,
As hand for glove, or tongue for sugar-plum.
At best, ’t is never pure and full belief;
Those furthest in the quagmire,—don’t suppose
They strayed there with no warning, got no chance
Of a filth-speck in their face, which they clenched teeth,
Bent brow against! Be sure they had their doubts,
And fears, and fairest challenges to try
The floor o’ the seeming solid sand! But no!
Their faith was pledged, acquaintance too apprised,
All but the last step ventured, kerchiefs waved,
And Sludge called “pet”: ’t was easier marching on
To the promised land join those who, Thursday next,
Meant to meet Shakespeare; better follow Sludge—
Prudent, oh sure!—on the alert, how else?
But making for the mid-bog, all the same!
To hear your outcries, one would think I caught
Miss Stokes by the scruff o’ the neck, and pitched her flat,
Foolish-face-foremost! Hear these simpletons,
That ’s all I beg, before my work ’s begun,
Before I ’ve touched them with my finger-tip!
Thus they await me (do but listen, now!
It ’s reasoning, this is,—I can’t imitate
The baby voice, though) “In so many tales
“Must be some truth, truth though a pin-point big,
“Yet, some: a single man ’s deceived, perhaps—
“Hardly, a thousand: to suppose one cheat
“Can gull all these, were more miraculous far
“Than aught we should confess a miracle”—
And so on. Then the Judge sums up—(it ’s rare)
Bids you respect the authorities that leap
To the judgment-seat at once,—why don’t you note
The limpid nature, the unblemished life,
The spotless honour, indisputable sense
Of the first upstart with his story? What—
Outrage a boy on whom you ne’er till now
Set eyes, because he finds raps trouble him?
Fools, these are: ay, and how of their opposites
Who never did, at bottom of their hearts,
Believe for a moment?—Men emasculate,
Blank of belief, who played, as eunuchs use,
With superstition safely,—cold of blood,
Who saw what made for them i’ the mystery,
Took their occasion, and supported Sludge
—As proselytes? No, thank you, far too shrewd!
—But promisers of fair play, encouragers
O’ the claimant; who in candour needs must hoist
Sludge up on Mars’ Hill, get speech out of Sludge
To carry off, criticize, and cant about!
Didn’t Athens treat Saint Paul so?—at any rate,
It ’s “a new thing” philosophy fumbles at.
Then there ’s the other picker-out of pearl
From dung-heaps,—ay, your literary man,
Who draws on his kid gloves to deal with Sludge
Daintily and discreetly,—shakes a dust
O’ the doctrine, flavours thence, he well knows how,
The narrative or the novel,—half-believes,
All for the book’s sake, and the public’s stare,
And the cash that ’s God’s sole solid in this world!
Look at him! Try to be too bold, too gross
For the master! Not you! He ’s the man for muck;
Shovel it forth, full-splash, he ’ll smooth your brown
Into artistic richness, never fear!
Find him the crude stuff; when you recognize
Your lie again, you ’ll doff your hat to it,
Dressed out for company! “For company,”
I say, since there ’s the relish of success:
Let all pay due respect, call the lie truth,
Save the soft silent smirking gentleman
Who ushered in the stranger: you must sigh
“How melancholy, he, the only one
“Fails to perceive the bearing of the truth
“Himself gave birth to!”—There ’s the triumph’s smack!
That man would choose to see the whole world roll
I’ the slime o’ the slough, so he might touch the tip
Of his brush with what I call the best of browns—
Tint ghost-tales, spirit-stories, past the power
Of the outworn umber and bistre!

Yet I think
There ’s a more hateful form of foolery—
The social sage’s, Solomon of saloons
And philosophic diner-out, the fribble
Who wants a doctrine for a chopping-block
To try the edge of his faculty upon,
Prove how much common sense he ’ll hack and hew
I’ the critical minute ’twixt the soup and fish!
These were my patrons: these, and the like of them
Who, rising in my soul now, sicken it,—
These I have injured! Gratitude to these?
The gratitude, forsooth, of a prostitute
To the greenhorn and the bully—friends of hers,
From the wag that wants the queer jokes for his club,
To the snuff-box-decorator, honest man,
Who just was at his wits’ end where to find
So genial a Pasiphae! All and each
Pay, compliment, protect from the police:
And how she hates them for their pains, like me!
So much for my remorse at thanklessness
Toward a deserving public!

But, for God?
Ay, that ’s a question! Well, sir, since you press—
(How you do tease the whole thing out of me!
I don’t mean you, you know, when I say “them”:
Hate you, indeed! But that Miss Stokes, that Judge!
Enough, enough—with sugar: thank you, sir!)
Now for it, then! Will you believe me, though?
You’ve heard what I confess; I don’t unsay
A single word: I cheated when I could,
Rapped with my toe-joints, set sham hands at work,
Wrote down names weak in sympathetic ink,
Rubbed odic lights with ends of phosphor-match,
And all the rest; believe that: believe this,
By the same token, though it seem to set
The crooked straight again, unsay the said,
Stick up what I ’ve knocked down; I can’t help that
It ’s truth! I somehow vomit truth to-day
This trade of mine—I don’t know, can’t be sure
But there was something in it, tricks and all!
Really, I want to light up my own mind.
They were tricks,—true, but what I mean to add
Is also true. First,—don’t it strike you, sir?
Go back to the beginning,—the first fact
We ’re taught is, there ’s a world beside this world,
With spirits, not mankind, for tenantry;
That much within that world once sojourned here,
That all upon this world will visit there,
And therefore that we, bodily here below,
Must have exactly such an interest
In learning what may be the ways o’ the world
Above us, as the disembodied folk
Have (by all analogic likelihood)
In watching how things go in the old home
With us, their sons, successors, and what not.
Oh yes, with added powers probably,
Fit for the novel state,—old loves grown pure,
Old interests understood aright,—they watch!
Eyes to see, ears to hear, and hands to help,
Proportionate to advancement: they ’re ahead,
That’s all—do what we do, but noblier done—
Use plate, whereas we eat our meals off delf,
(To use a figure).

Concede that, and I ask
Next what may be the mode of intercourse
Between us men here, and those once-men there?
First comes the Bible’s speech; then, history
With the supernatural element,—you know—
All that we sucked in with our mothers’ milk,
Grew up with, got inside of us at last,
Till it’s found bone of bone and flesh of flesh.
See now, we start with the miraculous,
And know it used to be, at all events:
What’s the first step we take, and can’t but take,
In arguing from the known to the obscure?
Why this: “What was before, may be to-day.
“Since Samuel’s ghost appeared to Saul, of course
“My brother’s spirit may appear to me.”
Go tell your teacher that! What’s his reply?
What brings a shade of doubt for the first time
O’er his brow late so luminous with faith?
“Such things have been,” says he, “and there’s no doubt
“Such things may be: but I advise mistrust
“Of eyes, ears, stomach, and, more than all, your brain,
“Unless it be of your great-grandmother,
“Whenever they propose a ghost to you!”
The end is, there’s a composition struck;
’T is settled, we’ve some way of intercourse
Just as in Saul’s time; only, different:
How, when and where, precisely,—find it out!
I want to know, then, what’s so natural
As that a person born into this world
And seized on by such teaching, should begin
With firm expectancy and a frank look-out
For his own allotment, his especial share
I’ the secret,—his particular ghost, in fine?
I mean, a person born to look that way,
Since natures differ: take the painter-sort,
One man lives fifty years in ignorance
Whether grass be green or red,—“No kind of eye
“For colour,” say you; while another picks
And puts away even pebbles, when a child,
Because of bluish spots and pinky veins—
“Give him forthwith a paint-box!” Just the same
Was I born . . . “medium,” you won’t let me say,—
Well, seer of the supernatural
Everywhen, everyhow and everywhere,—
Will that do?

I and all such boys of course
Started with the same stock of Bible-truth;
Only,—what in the rest you style their sense,
Instinct, blind reasoning but imperative,
This, betimes, taught them the old world had one law
And ours another: “New world, new laws,” cried they:
“None but old laws, seen everywhere at work,”
Cried I, and by their help explained my life
The Jews’ way, still a working way to me.
Ghosts made the noises, fairies waved the lights,
Or Santa Claus slid down on New Year’s Eve
And stuffed with cakes the stocking at my bed,
Changed the worn shoes, rubbed clean the fingered slate
O’ the sum that came to grief the day before.
This could not last long: soon enough I found
Who had worked wonders thus, and to what end:
But did I find all easy, like my mates?
Henceforth no supernatural any more?
Not a whit: what projects the billiard-balls?
“A cue,” you answer: “Yes, a cue,” said I;
“But what hand, off the cushion, moved the cue?
“What unseen agency, outside the world,
“Prompted its puppets to do this and that,
“Put cakes and shoes and slates into their mind,
“These mothers and aunts, nay even schoolmasters?”
Thus high I sprang, and there have settled since.
Just so I reason, in sober earnest still,
About the greater godsends, what you call
The serious gains and losses of my life.
What do I know or care about your world
Which either is or seems to be? This snap
O’ my fingers, sir! My care is for myself;
Myself am whole and sole reality
Inside a raree-show and a market-mob
Gathered about it: that ’s the use of things.
’T is easy saying they serve vast purposes,
Advantage their grand selves: be it true or false,
Each thing may have two uses. What ’s a star?
A world, or a world’s sun: doesn’t it serve
As taper also, time-piece, weather-glass,
And almanac? Are stars not set for signs
When we should shear our sheep, sow corn, prune trees?
The Bible says so.

Well, I add one use
To all the acknowledged uses, and declare
If I spy Charles’s Wain at twelve to-night,
It warns me, “Go, nor lose another day,
And have your hair cut, Sludge!” You laugh: and why?
Were such a sign too hard for God to give?
No: but Sludge seems too little for such grace:
Thank you, sir! So you think, so does not Sludge!
When you and good men gape at Providence,
Go into history and bid us mark
Not merely powder-plots prevented, crowns
Kept on kings’ heads by miracle enough,
But private mercies—oh, you’ve told me, sir,
Of such interpositions! How yourself
Once, missing on a memorable day
Your handkerchief—just setting out, you know,—
You must return to fetch it, lost the train,
And saved your precious self from what befell
The thirty-three whom Providence forgot.
You tell, and ask me what I think of this?
Well, sir, I think then, since you needs must know,
What matter had you and Boston city to boot
Sailed skyward, like burnt onion-peelings? Much
To you, no doubt: for me—undoubtedly
The cutting of my hair concerns me more,
Because, however sad the truth may seem,
Sludge is of all-importance to himself.
You set apart that day in every year
For special thanksgiving, were a heathen else:
Well, I cannot boast the like escape,
Suppose I said “I don’t thank Providence
“For my part, owing it no gratitude”?
“Nay, but you owe as much”—you’d tutor me,
“You, every man alive, for blessings gained
“In every hour o’ the day, could you but know!
“I saw my crowning mercy: all have such,
“Could they but see!” Well, sir, why don’t they see?
“Because they won’t look,—or perhaps, they can’t.”
Then, sir, suppose I can, and will, and do
Look, microscopically as is right,
Into each hour with its infinitude
Of influences at work to profit Sludge?
For that’s the case: I’ve sharpened up my sight
To spy a providence in the fire’s going out,
The kettle’s boiling, the dime’s sticking fast
Despite the hole i’ the pocket. Call such facts
Fancies, too petty a work for Providence,
And those same thanks which you exact from me
Prove too prodigious payment: thanks for what,
If nothing guards and guides us little men?
No, no, sir! You must put away your pride,
Resolve to let Sludge into partnership!
I live by signs and omens: looked at the roof
Where the pigeons settle—“If the further bird,
“The white, takes wing first, I’ll confess when thrashed;
“Not, if the blue does”—so I said to myself
Last week, lest you should take me by surprise:
Off flapped the white,—and I ’m confessing, sir!
Perhaps ’t is Providence’s whim and way
With only me, i’ the world: how can you tell?
“Because unlikely!” Was it likelier, now,
That this our one out of all worlds beside,
The what-d’you-call ’em millions, should be just
Precisely chosen to make Adam for,
And the rest o’ the tale? Yet the tale ’s true, you know:
Such undeserving clod was graced so once;
Why not graced likewise undeserving Sludge?
Are we merit-mongers, flaunt we filthy rags?
All you can bring against my privilege
Is, that another way was taken with you,—
Which I don’t question. It ’s pure grace, my luck:
I ’m broken to the way of nods and winks,
And need no formal summoning. You ’ve a help;
Holloa his name or whistle, clap your hands,
Stamp with your foot or pull the bell: all ’s one,
He understands you want him, here he comes.
Just so, I come at the knocking: you, sir, wait
The tongue o’ the bell, nor stir before you catch
Reason’s clear tingle, nature’s clapper brisk,
Or that traditional peal was wont to cheer
Your mother’s face turned heavenward: short of these
There ’s no authentic intimation, eh?
Well, when you hear, you ’ll answer them, start up
And stride into the presence, top of toe,
And there find Sludge beforehand, Sludge that sprang
At noise o’ the knuckle on the partition-wall!
I think myself the more religious man.
Religion ’s all or nothing; it ’s no mere smile
O’ contentment, sigh of aspiration, sir—
No quality o’ the finelier-tempered clay
Like its whiteness or its lightness; rather, stuff
O’ the very stuff, life of life, and self of self.
I tell you, men won’t notice; when they do,
They ’ll understand. I notice nothing else:
I ’m eyes, ears, mouth of me, one gaze and gape,
Nothing eludes me, everything ’s a hint,
Handle and help. It ’s all absurd, and yet
There’s something in it all, I know: how much?
No answer! What does that prove? Man’s still man.
Still meant for a poor blundering piece of work
When all’s done; but, if somewhat ’s done, like this,
Or not done, is the case the same? Suppose
I blunder in my guess at the true sense
O’ the knuckle-summons, nine times out of ten,—
What if the tenth guess happen to be right?
If the tenth shovel-load of powdered quartz
Yield me the nugget? I gather, crush, sift all,
Pass o’er the failure, pounce on the success.
To give you a notion, now—(let who wins, laugh!)
When first I see a man, what do I first?
Why, count the letters which make up his name,
And as their number chances, even or odd,
Arrive at my conclusion, trim my course:
Hiram H. Horsefall is your honoured name,
And haven’t I found a patron, sir, in you?
“Shall I cheat this stranger?” I take apple-pips,
Stick one in either canthus of my eye,
And if the left drops first—(your left, sir, stuck)
I ’m warned, I let the trick alone this time.
Yon, sir, who smile, superior to such trash,
You judge of character by other rules:
Don’t your rules sometimes fail you? Pray, what rule
Have you judged Sludge by hitherto?

Oh, be sure,
You, everybody blunders, just as I,
In simpler things than these by far! For see:
I knew two farmers,—one, a wiseacre
Who studied seasons, rummaged almanacs,
Quoted the dew-point, registered the frost,
And then declared, for outcome of his pains,
Next summer must be dampish: ’t was a drought.
His neighbour prophesied such drought would fall,
Saved hay and corn, made cent. per cent. thereby,
And proved a sage indeed: how came his lore?
Because one brindled heifer, late in March,
Stiffened her tail of evenings, and somehow
He got into his head that drought was meant!
I don’t expect all men can do as much:
Such kissing goes by favour. You must take
A certain turn of mind for this,—a twist
I’ the flesh, as well. Be lazily alive,
Open-mouthed, like my friend the ant-eater,
Letting all nature’s loosely-guarded motes
Settle and, slick, be swallowed! Think yourself
The one i’ the world, the one for whom the world
Was made, expect it tickling at your mouth!
Then will the swarm of busy buzzing flies,
Clouds of coincidence, break egg-shell, thrive,
Breed, multiply, and bring you food enough.

I can’t pretend to mind your smiling, sir!
Oh, what you mean is this! Such intimate way,
Close converse, frank exchange of offices,
Strict sympathy of the immeasurably great
With the infinitely small, betokened here
By a course of signs and omens, raps and sparks,—
Flow does it suit the dread traditional text
O’ the “Great and Terrible Name”? Shall the Heaven of Heavens
Stoop to such child’s play?

Please, sir, go with me
A moment, and I ’ll try to answer you.
The “Magnum et terribile” (is that right?)
Well, folk began with this in the early day;
And all the acts they recognized in proof
Were thunders, lightnings, earthquakes, whirlwinds, dealt
Indisputably on men whose death they caused.
There, and there only, folk saw Providence
At work,—and seeing it, ’t was right enough
All heads should tremble, hands wring hands amain,
And knees knock hard together at the breath
O’ the Name’s first letter; why, the Jews, I’m told,
Won’t write it down, no, to this very hour,
Nor speak aloud; you know best if ’t be so.
Each ague-fit of fear at end, they crept
(Because somehow people once born must live)
Out of the sound, sight, swing and sway o’ the Name,
Into a corner, the dark rest of the world,
And safe space where as yet no fear had reached;
’T was there they looked about them, breathed again,
And felt indeed at home, as we might say.
The current o’ common things, the daily life,
This had their due contempt; no Name pursued
Man from the mountain-top where fires abide,
To his particular mouse-hole at its foot
Where he ate, drank, digested, lived in short:
Such was man’s vulgar business, far too small
To be worth thunder: “small,” folk kept on, “small,”
With much complacency in those great days!
A mote of sand, you know, a blade of grass—
What was so despicable as mere grass,
Except perhaps the life o’ the worm or fly
Which fed there? These were “small” and men were great.
Well, sir, the old way’s altered somewhat since,
And the world wears another aspect now:
Somebody turns our spyglass round, or else
Puts a new lens in it: grass, worm, fly grow big:
We find great things are made of little things,
And little things go lessening till at last
Comes God behind them. Talk of mountains now?
We talk of mould that heaps the mountain, mites
That throng the mould, and God that makes the mites.
The Name comes close behind a stomach-cyst,
The simplest of creations, just a sac
That’s mouth, heart, legs and belly at once, yet lives
And feels, and could do neither, we conclude,
If simplified still further one degree:
The small becomes the dreadful and immense
Lightning, forsooth? No word more upon that!
A tin-foil bottle, a strip of greasy silk,
With a bit of wire and knob of brass, and there’s
Your dollar’s-worth of lightning! But the cyst—
The life of the least of the little things?

No, no!
Preachers and teachers try another tack,
Come near the truth this time: they put aside
Thunder and lightning: “That ’s mistake,” they cry,
“Thunderbolts fall for neither fright nor sport,
“But do appreciable good, like tides,
“Changes o’ the wind, and other natural facts—
“‘Good’ meaning good to man, his body or soul.
“Mediate, immediate, all things minister
“To man,—that ’s settled: be our future text
“‘We are His children!’” So, they now harangue
About the intention, the contrivance, all
That keeps up an incessant play of love,—
See the Bridgewater book.

Amen to it!
Well, sir, I put this question: I ’m a child?
I lose no time, but take you at your word:
How shall I act a child’s part properly?
Your sainted mother, sir,—used you to live
With such a thought as this a-worrying you?
“She has it in her power to throttle me,
“Or stab or poison: she may turn me out,
“Or lock me in,—nor stop at this to-day,
“But cut me off to-morrow from the estate
“I look for” (long may you enjoy it, sir!)
“In brief, she may unchild the child I am.”
You never had such crotchets? Nor have I!
Who, frank confessing childship from the first
Cannot both fear and take my ease at once,
So, don’t fear,—know what might be, well enough
But know too, child-like, that it will not be,
At least in my case, mine, the son and heir
O’ the kingdom, as yourself proclaim my style.
But do you fancy I stop short at this?
Wonder if suit and service, son and heir
Needs must expect, I dare pretend to find?
If, looking for signs proper to such an one,
I straight perceive them irresistible?
Concede that homage is a son’s plain right,
And, never mind the nods and raps and winks,
’T is the pure obvious supernatural
Steps forward, does its duty: why, of course!
I have presentiments; my dreams come true:
I fancy a friend stands whistling all in white
Blithe as a boblink, and he ’s dead I learn.
I take dislike to a dog my favourite long,
And sell him; he goes mad next week and snaps.
I guess that stranger will turn up to-day
I have not seen these three years; there ’s his knock
I wager “sixty peaches on that tree!”—
That I pick up a dollar in my walk,
That your wife’s brother’s cousin’s name was George—
And win on all points. Oh, you wince at this?
You’d fain distinguish between gift and gift,
Washington’s oracle and Sludge’s itch
O’ the elbow when at whist he ought to trump?
With Sludge it’s too absurd? Fine, draw the line
Somewhere, but, sir, your somewhere is not mine!

Bless us, I’m turning poet! It’s time to end.
How you have drawn me out, sir! All I ask
Is—am I heir or not heir? If I’m he,
Then, sir, remember, that same personage
(To judge by what we read i’ the newspaper)
Requires, beside one nobleman in gold
To carry up and down his coronet,
Another servant, probably a duke,
To hold egg-nogg in readiness: why want
Attendance, sir, when helps in his father’s house
Abound, I ’d like to know?

Enough of talk!
My fault is that I tell too plain a truth.
Why, which of those who say they disbelieve,
Your clever people, but has dreamed his dream,
Caught his coincidence, stumbled on his fact
He can’t explain, (he’ll tell you smilingly)
Which he ’s too much of a philosopher
To count as supernatural, indeed,
So calls a puzzle and problem, proud of it
Bidding you still be on your guard, you know,
Because one fact don’t make a system stand,
Nor prove this an occasional escape
Of spirit beneath the matter: that’s the way!
Just so wild Indians picked up, piece by piece,
The fact in California, the fine gold
That underlay the gravel—hoarded these,
But never made a system stand, nor dug!
So wise men hold out in each hollowed palm
A handful of experience, sparkling fact
They can’t explain; and since their rest of life
Is all explainable, what proof in this?
Whereas I take the fact, the grain of gold,
And fling away the dirty rest of life,
And add this grain to the grain each fool has found
O’ the million other such philosophers,—
Till I see gold, all gold and only gold,
Truth questionless though unexplainable,
And the miraculous proved the commonplace!
The other fools believed in mud, no doubt—
Failed to know gold they saw: was that so strange?
Are all men born to play Bach’s fiddle-fugues,
“Time” with the foil in carte, jump their own height,
Cut the mutton with the broadsword, skate a five,
Make the red hazard with the cue, clip nails
While swimming, in five minutes row a mile,
Pull themselves three feet up with the left arm,
Do sums of fifty figures in their head,
And so on, by the scores of instances?
The Sludge with luck, who sees the spiritual facts
His fellows strive and fail to see, may rank
With these, and share the advantage.

Ay, but share
The drawback! Think it over by yourself;
I have not heart, sir, and the fire ’s gone grey.
Defect somewhere compensates for success,
Everyone knows that. Oh, we’re equals, sir!
The big-legged fellow has a little arm
And a less brain, though big legs win the race:
Do you suppose I ’scape the common lot?
Say, I was born with flesh so sensitive,
Soul so alert, that, practice helping both,
I guess what ’s going on outside the veil,
Just as a prisoned crane feels pairing-time
In the islands where his kind are, so must fall
To capering by himself some shiny night,
As if your back-yard were a plot of spice—
Thus am I ’ware o’ the spirit world: while you,
Blind as a beetle that way,—for amends.
Why, you can double fist and floor me, sir!
Ride that hot hardmouthed horrid horse of yours,
Laugh while it lightens, play with the great dog,
Speak your mind though it vex some friend to hear,
Never brag, never bluster, never blush,—
In short, you’ve pluck, when I’m a coward—there!
I know it, I can’t help it,—folly or no,
I ’m paralyzed, my hand’s no more a hand,
Nor my head a head, in danger: you can smile
And change the pipe in your cheek. Your gift ’s not mine.
Would you swap for mine? No! but you’d add my gift
To yours: I dare say! I too sigh at times,
Wish I were stouter, could tell truth nor flinch,
Kept cool when threatened, did not mind so much
Being dressed gaily, making strangers stare,
Eating nice things; when I ’d amuse myself,
I shut my eyes and fancy in my brain
I ’m—now the President, now Jenny Lind,
Now Emerson, now the Benicia Boy—
With all the civilized world a-wondering
And worshipping. I know it ’s folly and worse;
I feel such tricks sap, honeycomb the soul,
But I can’t cure myself: despond, despair,
And then, hey, presto, there ’s a turn o’ the wheel,
Under comes uppermost, fate makes full amends;
Sludge knows and sees and bears a hundred things
You all are blind to,—I ’ve my taste of truth,
Likewise my touch of falsehood,—vice no doubt,
But you ’ve your vices also: I ’m content.

What, sir? You won’t shake hands? “Because I cheat!”
“You’ve found me out in cheating!” That’s enough
To make an apostle swear! Why, when I cheat,
Mean to cheat, do cheat, and am caught in the act,
Are you, or, rather, am I sure o’ the fact?
(There ’s verse again, but I ’m inspired somehow.)
Well then I ’m not sure! I may be, perhaps,
Free as a babe from cheating: how it began,
My gift,—no matter; what ’t is got to be
In the end now, that ’s the question; answer that!
Had I seen, perhaps, what hand was holding mine,
Leading me whither, I had died of fright:
So, I was made believe I led myself.
If I should lay a six-inch plank from roof
To roof, you would not cross the street, one step,
Even at your mother’s summons: but, being shrewd
If I paste paper on each side the plank
And swear ’t is solid pavement, why, you ‘ll cross
Humming a tune the while, in ignorance
Beacon Street stretches a hundred feet below:
I walked thus, took the paper-cheat for stone.
Some impulse made me set a thing o’ the move
Which, started once, ran really by itself;
Beer flows thus, suck the siphon; toss the kite,
It takes the wind and floats of its own force.
Don’t let truth’s lump rot stagnant for the lack
Of a timely helpful lie to leaven it!
Put a chalk-egg beneath the clucking hen,
She ’ll lay a real one, laudably deceived,
Daily for weeks to come. I ’ve told my lie,
And seen truth follow, marvels none of mine;
All was not cheating, sir, I ’m positive!
I don’t know if I move your hand sometimes
When the spontaneous writing spreads so far,
If my knee lifts the table all that height,
Why the inkstand don’t fall off the desk a-tilt,
Why the accordion plays a prettier waltz
Than I can pick out on the piano-forte,
Why I speak so much more than I intend,
Describe so many things I never saw.
I tell you, sir, in one sense, I believe
Nothing at all,—that everybody can,
Will, and does cheat: but in another sense
I’m ready to believe my very self—
That every cheat’s inspired, and every lie
Quick with a germ of truth.

You ask perhaps
Why I should condescend to trick at all
If I know a way without it? This is why!
There’s a strange secret sweet self-sacrifice
In any desecration of one’s soul
To a worthy end,—isn’t it Herodotus
(I wish I could read Latin!) who describes
The single gift o’ the land’s virginity,
Demanded in those old Egyptian rites,
(I’ve but a hazy notion—help me, sir!)
For one purpose in the world, one day in a life,
One hour in a day—thereafter, purity,
And a veil thrown o’er the past for evermore!
Well, now, they understood a many things
Down by Nile city, or wherever it was!
I’ve always vowed, after the minute’s lie,
And the end’s gain,—truth should be mine henceforth.
This goes to the root o’ the matter, sir,—this plain
Plump fact: accept it and unlock with it
The wards of many a puzzle!

Or, finally,
Why should I set so fine a gloss on things?
What need I care? I cheat in self-defence,
And there’s my answer to a world of cheats!
Cheat? To be sure, sir! What ’s the world worth else?
Who takes it as he finds, and thanks his stars?
Don’t it want trimming, turning, furbishing up
And polishing over? Your so-styled great men,
Do they accept one truth as truth is found,
Or try their skill at tinkering? What’s your world?
Here are you born, who are, I’ll say at once,
Of the luckiest kind, whether in head and heart,
Body and soul, or all that helps them both.
Well, now, look back: what faculty of yours
Came to its full, had ample justice done
By growing when rain fell, biding its time,
Solidifying growth when earth was dead,
Spiring up, broadening wide, in seasons due?
Never! You shot up and frost nipped you off,
Settled to sleep when sunshine bade you sprout;
One faculty thwarted its fellow: at the end,
All you boast is “I had proved a topping tree
“In other climes”—yet this was the right clime
Had you foreknown the seasons. Young, you’ve force
Wasted like well-streams: old,—oh, then indeed,
Behold a labyrinth of hydraulic pipes
Through which you’d play off wondrous waterwork;
Only, no water ’s left to feed their play.
Young,—you ’ve a hope, an aim, a love: it ’s tossed
And crossed and lost: you struggle on, some spark
Shut in your heart against the puffs around,
Through cold and pain; these in due time subside,
Now then for age’s triumph, the hoarded light
You mean to loose on the altered face of things,—
Up with it on the tripod! It ’s extinct.
Spend your life’s remnant asking, which was best,
Light smothered up that never peeped forth once,
Or the cold cresset with full leave to shine?
Well, accept this too,—seek the fruit of it
Not in enjoyment, proved a dream on earth,
But knowledge, useful for a second chance,
Another life,—you ’ve lost this world—you ’ve gained
Its knowledge for the next. What knowledge, sir,
Except that you know nothing? Nay, you doubt
Whether ’t were better have made you man or brute,
If aught be true, if good and evil clash.
No foul, no fair, no inside, no outside,
There’s your world!

Give it me! I slap it brisk
With harlequin’s pasteboard sceptre: what ’s it now?
Changed like a rock-flat, rough with rusty weed,
At first wash-over o’ the returning wave!
All the dry dead impracticable stuff
Starts into life and light again; this world
Pervaded by the influx from the next.
I cheat, and what ’s the happy consequence?
You find full justice straightway dealt you out,
Each want supplied, each ignorance set at ease,
Each folly fooled. No life-long labour now
As the price of worse than nothing! No mere film
Holding you chained in iron, as it seems,
Against the outstretch of your very arms
And legs i’ the sunshine moralists forbid!
What would you have? Just speak and, there, you see!
You ’re supplemented, made a whole at last,
Bacon advises, Shakespeare writes you songs,
And Mary Queen of Scots embraces you.
Thus it goes on, not quite like life perhaps,
But so near, that the very difference piques,
Shows that e’en better than this best will be—
This passing entertainment in a hut
Whose bare walls take your taste since, one stage more,
And you arrive at the palace: all half real,
And you, to suit it, less than real beside,
In a dream, lethargic kind of death in life,
That helps the interchange of natures, flesh
Transfused by souls, and such souls! Oh, ’t is choice!
And if at whiles the bubble, blown too thin,
Seem nigh on bursting,—if you nearly see
The real world through the false,—what do you see?
Is the old so ruined? You find you ’re in a flock
O’ the youthful, earnest, passionate—genius, beauty,
Rank and wealth also, if you care for these:
And all depose their natural rights, hail you,
(That ’s me, sir) as their mate and yoke-fellow,
Participate in Sludgehood—nay, grow mine,
I veritably possess them—banish doubt,
And reticence and modesty alike!
Why, here ’s the Golden Age, old Paradise
Or new Eutopia! Here ’s true life indeed,
And the world well won now, mine for the first time!

And all this might be, may be, and with good help
Of a little lying shall be: so, Sludge lies!
Why, he ’s at worst your poet who sings how Greeks
That never were, in Troy which never was,
Did this or the other impossible great thing!
He’s Lowell—it ’s a world (you smile applause),
Of his own invention—wondrous Longfellow,
Surprising Hawthorne! Sludge does more than they,
And acts the books they write: the more his praise!

But why do I mount to poets? Take plain prose—
Dealers in common sense, set these at work,
What can they do without their helpful lies?
Each states the law and fact and face o’ the thing
Just as he’d have them, finds what he thinks fit,
Is blind to what missuits him, just records
What makes his case out, quite ignores the rest.
It ’s a History of the World, the Lizard Age,
The Early Indians, the Old Country War,
Jerome Napoleon, whatsoever you please,
All as the author wants it. Such a scribe
You pay and praise for putting life in stones,
Fire into fog, making the past your world.
There’s plenty of “How did you contrive to grasp
“The thread which led you through this labyrinth?
“How build such solid fabric out of air?
“How on so slight foundation found this tale?
“Biography, narrative?” or, in other words,
“How many lies did it require to make
“The portly truth you here present us with?”
“Oh,” quoth the penman, purring at your praise,
“’T is fancy all; no particle of fact:
“I was poor and threadbare when I wrote that book
“‘Bliss in the Golden City.’ I, at Thebes?
“We writers paint out of our heads, you see!”
“—Ah, the more wonderful the gift in you,
“The more creativeness and godlike craft!”
But I, do I present you with my piece,
It ’s “What, Sludge? When my sainted mother spoke
“The verses Lady Jane Grey last composed
“About the rosy bower in the seventh heaven
“Where she and Queen Elizabeth kept house,—
“You made the raps? ’T was your invention that?
“Cur, slave and devil!”—eight fingers and two thumbs
Stuck in my throat!

Well, if the marks seem gone
’T is because stiffish cock-tail, taken in time,
Is better for a bruise than arnica.
There, sir! I bear no malice: ’t isn’t in me.
I know I acted wrongly: still, I ’ve tried
What I could say in my excuse,—to show
The devil ’s not all devil . . . I don’t pretend,
He’s angel, much less such a gentleman
As you, sir! And I’ve lost you, lost myself,
Lost all-l-l-l- . . .

No—are you in earnest, sir?
O yours, sir, is an angel’s part! I know
What prejudice prompts, and what’s the common course
Men take to soothe their ruffled self-conceit:
Only you rise superior to it all!
No, sir, it don’t hurt much; it ’s speaking long
That makes me choke a little: the marks will go!
What? Twenty V-notes more, and outfit too,
And not a word to Greeley? One—one kiss
O’ the hand that saves me! You’ll not let me speak,
I well know, and I ’ve lost the right, too true!
But I must say, sir, if She hears (she does)
Your sainted . . . Well, sir,—be it so! That’s, I think,
My bed-room candle. Good-night!!Bl-l-less you, sir.

R-r-r, you brute-beast and blackguard! Cowardly scamp!
I only wish I dared burn down the house
And spoil your sniggering! Oh what, you’re the man
You ’re satisfied at last? You ’ve found out Sludge?
We ’ll see that presently: my turn, sir, next!
I too can tell my story: brute,—do you hear?—
You throttled your sainted mother, that old hag,
In just such a fit of passion: no, it was . . .
To get this house of hers, and many a note
Like these. . . I’ll pocket them, however . . . five,
Ten, fifteen . . . ay, you gave her throat the twist,
Or else you poisoned her! Confound the cuss!
Where was my head? I ought to have prophesied
He ’ll die in a year and join her: that ’s the way.
I don’t know where my head is: what had I done?
How did it all go? I said he poisoned her,
And hoped he ’d have grace given him to repent,
Whereon he picked this quarrel, bullied me
And called me cheat: I thrashed him,—who could help?
He howled for mercy, prayed me on his knees
To cut and run and save him from disgrace:
I do so, and once off, he slanders me.
An end of him! Begin elsewhere anew!
Boston’s a hole, the herring-pond is wide,
V-notes are something, liberty still more.
Beside, is he the only fool in the world?

Saturday, 7 November 2009

Where did October Go?

The First Medium I ever saw on a platform was at Henley Town Hall.
Keith Charles

Tuesday, 8 September 2009

Qualities of a good friend by Stephen Richards

Subject: Qualities of a good friend


(A)ccepts you as you are

(B)elieves in "you"

(C)alls you just to say "HI"

(D)oesn't give up on you

(E)nvisions the whole of you

(F)orgives your mistakes

(G)ives unconditionally

(H)elps you

(I)nvites you over

(J)ust "be" with you

(K)eeps you close at heart

(L)oves you for who you are

(M)akes a difference in your life

(N)ever Judges

(O)ffers support

(P)icks you up

(Q)uiets your fears

(R)aises your spirits

(S)ays nice things about you

(T)ells you the truth when you need hear it

(U)nderstands you

(V)alues you

(W)alks beside you

(X)- plain things you don't understand

(Y)ells when you won't listen and....

(Z)aps you back to reality.

Friday, 21 August 2009

Tonight is an investigation with PP Paranormal - tonight a private house as usual I know nothing of the destination.


Headed for a bath - time on burglar alarm 11:11

Thursday, 13 August 2009

I am not the centre of the Universe
no force, no pull have I.
If you see me smile
please, not words no speak.

I cannot tell your fortune,
only feel your pain.

No sun ever shines in my world,
just clouds of black and grey.

I'll find myself invisible
upon that judgement day.

If you see a teardrop,
it's not for me I cry,
for you may taste the salt,
but the water will drift away.

Do not waste your colours,
your canvass or your oils,
paint me in the dust I leave
and let me waste away.

You tell me to be positive,
strong and to believe,
that I am unique and beautiful
with passion and desire
but the light that glows inside of me
fades faster with the hour.

Look for me at Heaven's gate,
you'll see me waiting there,
I'll be covered in rags of old,
to prick your conscience gleefully
as you wear your cloth of gold.

Thursday, 25 June 2009

Police have finally admitted they got it wrong in the shooting of Jean Charles de Menez. It was his naughty brother dennis they were after!

Gainsborough Ghost Trail Xperience

Lincolnshire's premiere ghost trail experience!

Monday, 1 June 2009

Biffa Waste Services Ltd

Bastards - do not enter a contract with these people - unless you wish to be screwed for every penny.

Avoid Biffa Waste Services Ltd
I used to go out with an English teacher, but she dumped me. She didn't approve of my improper use of the colon.

Friday, 29 May 2009

10 reasons why men are lazy: 1)

Thursday, 28 May 2009

I've thought long and hard, and have decided on my next New Year's resolution. 1024×768.

Monday, 25 May 2009

Explosion at a pie factory in Huddersfield. 3.14159265 dead.

Tuesday, 19 May 2009

Statistically, 13 out of 13 triskaidekaphobics won't like this joke

Monday, 18 May 2009

John Terry has been quoted as saying he feels Chelsea were robbed against Barcelona. Marks & Spencers have said "Now he knows how we feel when his mum has been in store".

Saturday, 16 May 2009

Women are like parking spaces, normally all the good ones are taken. So, occasionally, when no one's looking, you have to stick it in a disabled one.

Friday, 15 May 2009

Josef Fritzl was said to be inconsolable today after receiving his revised council tax bill for the past 25 years.

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

Common Cold by Ogden Nash

Go hang yourself, you old M.D,!
You shall not sneer at me.
Pick up your hat and stethoscope,
Go wash your mouth with laundry soap;
I contemplate a joy exquisite
In not paying you for your visit.
I did not call you to be told
My malady is a common cold.

By pounding brow and swollen lip;
By fever's hot and scaly grip;
By those two red redundant eyes
That weep like woeful April skies;
By racking snuffle, snort, and sniff;
By handkerchief after handkerchief;
This cold you wave away as naught
Is the damnedest cold man ever caught!

Give ear, you scientific fossil!
Here is the genuine Cold Colossal;
The Cold of which researchers dream,
The Perfect Cold, the Cold Supreme.
This honored system humbly holds
The Super-cold to end all colds;
The Cold Crusading for Democracy;
The Führer of the Streptococcracy.

Bacilli swarm within my portals
Such as were ne'er conceived by mortals,
But bred by scientists wise and hoary
In some Olympic laboratory;
Bacteria as large as mice,
With feet of fire and heads of ice
Who never interrupt for slumber
Their stamping elephantine rumba.

A common cold, gadzooks, forsooth!
Ah, yes. And Lincoln was jostled by Booth;
Don Juan was a budding gallant,
And Shakespeare's plays show signs of talent;
The Arctic winter is fairly coolish,
And your diagnosis is fairly foolish.
Oh what a derision history holds
For the man who belittled the Cold of Colds!
Statistically, 6 out of 7 dwarves are not happy.

Tuesday, 12 May 2009

You have to feel sorry for Ricky Hatton, the last time someone got battered that badly around the ring they were found dead in Michael Barrymore's pool.

Monday, 11 May 2009

Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?

Tuesday, 7 April 2009


We all know those cute little computer symbols called 'emoticons,' where:
:) means a smile and
:( is a frown.
Sometimes these are represented by
Well, how about some 'ARSE-ICONS?'
Here goes:
(_!_) a regular arse

(__!__) a fat arse

(!) a tight arse

(_*_) a sore arse

{_!_} a swishy arse

(_o_) an arse that's been around
(_x_) kiss my arse

(_X_) leave my arse alone
(_zzz_) a tired arse

(_E=mc2_) a smart arse

(_$_) Money coming out of his arse
(_?_) Dumb arse

Cuprinol Sprayable Fence Treatment Autumn Brown 5ltr

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¡ʎɐʍ sıɥʇ ɹǝʇʇǝq sʞoo1 buıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝ sǝɯıʇǝɯos

Thursday, 26 March 2009

Percy Freeman Speaks

Percy Freeman talking to Fred Dinage after Lincoln Citys 2-2 with Tranmere Rovers at Sincil Bank

Wednesday, 25 March 2009

Saturday, 21 March 2009

The Ooooh Aaaah Bomb


US State papers dating from 1994 released under the Freedom of Information Act reveal that, during the Gulf War, the Pentagon toyed with the idea of developing an aphrodisiac bomb that would cause enemy troops to find each other sexually irresistible. An alternative was to make enemy troops sexually attractive to stinging and biting insects and rodents. They also spent 50 years looking into a Who?Me? stink bomb that would produce smells leading enemy troops to think one of them had farted or suddenly developed bad breath.

Tuesday, 10 March 2009

Tree Removal in Scotter Upsets Residents and Rooks.


Last weeks removal of a number of long established trees on wasteland at the rear of the Gamekeeper pub in Scotter has caused the concern of many local residents.

They are not alone, as the trees, which have been a home for rooks for decades have disappeared, coincides with the return of the rooks for nesting. The rooks find themselves homeless as the birds tend to nest again and again in the same trees, and utilise last year's nests.

Whilst no offence has been committed unless the birds were either in the process of building or eggs were laid, it is still a sad site for anyone who cares about the loss of the habitat of local wildlife and what has become a part of Scotter history and charm albeit that the trees were on privately owned land.

Saturday, 7 March 2009

Poetic Thoughts

Hiding beneath the shadows
Where only darkness falls,
Shouting out the names of saints,
At least those I can recall.

Cursing at the demons, angels and the like.
Wishing plagues and tortures,
On all that loved or loathed me;
That placed me here today.

Till all that's left,
To hate the most.
The one I truly despise,
Lies where only darkness falls
In the shadows where I hide.

Friday, 6 March 2009

Once In a Red Moon

Once In A Red Moon
Absolutely Heaven. Has there been a more uplifting song than 'You Raise Me Up'?
I must explore more of Secret Garden

Uri Geller's Meditations

Sorry Uri, Meditations
does you no favours. Corny at best, down right irritating at worst. I can still see you now, walking around Elm Park, microphone in hand, using positive thought to will Reading to promotion...the season they were relegated.

Last Night

Have just finished watching Lynda La Plante - Trial And Retribution - 9 To 11 [DVD] [2005]

Lynda La Plante can do no wrong as far as I'm concerned, but the performances of David Hayman and in particular Victoria Smurfit take this to another level.

The Journey

Listening to The Journey
A meditation CD containing words from Conversations with God: An Uncommon Dialogue: Bk. 1 (Blue cover) and music by Jerry Brunskill.
A CD that can change lives. Be inspired. One of my all time favourites.


Listening to Frequencies

A compilation of inspired tracks by Jonathan Goldman. The guys a genius.
Perfect for meditation, healing of just chilling.

Thursday, 5 March 2009

World Peace Card Meditation

Saturday, March 7, 7:30pm
You are invited to take part in the third World Peace Card Meditation. Please mark your calendar and forward this email to all your friends.
Download Additional World Peace Cards

Organised by The International Center for Reiki Training

Is This A Problem?

Been bugging me for a while now, but I do find it alarming that so many local music venues, instead of putting on new, young bands, or even established older bands, instead fill the spots with groups who are 'Tribute Bands', usually with a name that is some cringe-inducing pun on the original name or a song title.

Now I confess I attended a Bjorn Again concert and have a few CD singles of theirs. They were real fun to watch, especially after some form of, shall we say, 'relaxant'. But that was nearly 15 years ago, and in which case they probably have outlasted ABBA! But surely this situation must be so frustrating for a band struggling for gigs? Perhaps this will come to haunt the UK music scene.
Or will we soon have a tribute band to a tribute band?

Life Around My Father

Have just finished reading Life Around My Father Harry Edwards

Lovely little book, written by his eldest daughter, very personal, with amusing anecdotes and fascinating photos of the great man and his early days. Need to find something on his later years now.

Anyone interested the Harry Edwards Healing Sanctuary can be found at

Wednesday, 4 March 2009

Garden Thoughts

Why grow grasses in flower beds?

Anyway a busy couple of days in le jardin.

Most of the stuff is now in, spuds, peas, lettuce, beetroot, spinach, cabbage, carrots, shallots et al.

Plus many others started off in the greenhouse..sweetcorn, courgettes, sprouts, more cabbage, cauliflower plus flowers too. But no grasses. Pampus grass...its a weed, pull it up.

Gardens should be colourful.
Lawns are green and are made of grass.

Saturday, 28 February 2009


After my comments about gollywogs, what add appears on the blog...
Golly Badges
The best Golly Badge Shop Ever badge available

Oh dear...
Oh the Irony...

If it obviously responds to what is written I'll try this...

Free Porsche to the author of the Feel Like An Eskimo Blog...

Cosmic ordering my a**e.

Bono in trouble for saying w****r.
Doesn't he say that in their episode on The Simpsons and that can be shown anytime?
Don't be so fussy Radio One...This is getting silly...Who but The Daily Mail really care?

Made I Laugh

Monday, 23 February 2009

Clear as Spin

Just to clarify - the annoying moving thing - relates to that Labour claims that 'waiting lists are down by 614,000 since 1997. Most patients are now waiting less than 13 weeks, and by the end of this year nobody will wait more than 18 weeks for treatment.'

Fantastic Fiction

Thought I'd mention, pay tribute, to a web to a website a often visit..
It has bibliographies for over 20,000 authors and information on over 270,000 books and its British.

Saturday, 7 February 2009


The Daily Mail seems to think Gollywog is not offensive.
How come I am offended?
If you were brought up on Seventies sitcoms, like 'Love Thy Neighbour' or variety shows like 'The Black & White Minstrels' then I guess in your world its OK. But really, in 2009.
Carol Thatcher is just demonstrating her own upbringing, I can certainly imagine Denis saying that, and I prefer not to imagine the evil bitch mother of hers at all so I won't. Bring on a state funeral, lets not have a headstone, a urinal will do, so we can all piss on her grave.
Anyway my point is... consign them to a museum, the gollywog I mean, not the Thatchers.

Friday, 30 January 2009

First Post

First post I guess should be non controversial and so it is.
An explanation for the title comes from a song title by Gregory Grey from the album 'Think of Swans' from the eighties, an artist I saw at the Marquee Club, in Wardour Street. It has no special meaning to me other than I've always liked the title.